I have been going through tremendous life-change this period. Even writing one single blog post scares me.
It feels like everyone just reading my bare mind.
It feels like every single word I key in is going to be used against me.
I just wonder do anyone who has been blogging for years experience this? This horrifying-scary feeling you encounter that makes you 'almost' go crazy.
As most of you know, the recent trend is that most of people that I know at least own one social media. I admit, I have those things as well though I ceased my activity on most of them.
I have 'almost' completely ceased going active on Facebook since it no longer interests me and none in my family is using it. Getting to know what your 'friends' are up to is fun, but it is also depressing. So I stopped logging in. It has been few months.
Ah, but I still see my Twitter timeline as it is my second source of news feed apart of Google Newsstand. It is fun, but not addicting.
And there is blogging.
You cannot really say blogging as social media since it's more like an 'almost' one-way portal for people to share their thoughts and ideas to their readers, and receive many comments.
My concern now is, I start to think to cease my activity here in blogging.
Well, at least, decreasing it to a whole-new degree.
I mean, I have never thought to stop blogging. But recently, the idea came to me.
So let me share you my experience of people abusing my blog posts.
As all of you know, though I key in most of my daily life and thoughts here; I have never really revealed sensitive matters. Like, I do write how I think and how I feel, but I filter most of it. I omit so many things and I have to cover up some stories for third party's safety.
I used to be blunt about it, but not now. I realised that it is important to take care of ourselves in internet. It's a wide, fast, unknown world. Full of danger.
But there is this real experience.
One of my reader kept abusing me with everything that I wrote. He took every word that I keyed in literally--and for some reasons, attacking me with that. I have been depressed and sick of this abusive person but I decided to stay quiet.
Well, don't worry. It doesn't matter anymore.
Though I think it has passed and I have felt much better to end it. It was a horrifying experience.
But still, it scares me to type in many things here. I mean, I am afraid that every word that I type here will be used against me. I would have no protection.
I am not as blunt as those straightforward people. I am introverted, I think thoroughly of every thing that I type. I take time to respond to everything, and I am vulnerable. I never know it is this hard to jump in to the world and being social.
But then, I don't like growling inside solitude. I enjoy companions and nice chats.
Lots of love ♥